The calm before the storm...

...the moment that everyone holds their breath, scared to let it out in case they can't draw another.

New Day New Dawn...

I would like to say after a good night's sleep (of which I had a pretty bad nights sleep in reality) I've woken with a bit of a brighter outlook on life today which is a relief.

Obviously last nights rant did me some favours. So thanks blogger, you inane distributor of tranquility, I love ya guts! (Not sure which part, maybe i'll opt for the small intestine because it most resembles spag-boll!)

Long time no vent...

I think it's fair to say that when you get to a certain age, you like to feel that you can take what life throws at you on the chin. No need to hassle the folks, siblings or friends because your old now you and should be able to deal with it, right? That's what I keep telling myself and to a certain extent I think that's what people expect.

Sometimes it would be nice to be care free again and let somebody else be the bearer of all responsibility and concern, but until they invent age-reversal technology or I get Senile Dementia I get i'm stuck with where I'm at.

It's fair to say that I feel pretty guilty to be wallowing in self-pity when there have been others who have been going through such a hard time, it makes my life look like sunshine and lollipops. Truth is that sometimes you just get pissed off with life and that's that.

Nothing to be concerned with, just putting it in black and white might just help me let of a bit off steam. Thanks for listening blogger, you dont ask questions you just sit back and take it! I wont draw and parallels with George Micheal there, although it is pretty tempting.

Happy Friday Night!

Just when you thought I wouldn't

I did!

I have just spent 14 hours, what feels like banging my head against a wall! Now for many a white-coated maniac, that probably sounds like a glorious sunday afternoon activity. For me, its like a heltar skeltar into satan's bowels!

Aside from sharing my frustrations with you, I thought I'd share my delights also - I have found a certain sanctuary in a well known piece of music by Debussy called "Clair De Lune". I don't know what it is, but there's something in there that is magic for me - so magic in fact I don'y want to put it into words.

Take a listen...it'll be worth it.

Got me a bike!!! Woohoo - A Yamaha DT175

What made me curious is that the bike is a 2000 model, with only 607 Km on the clock. Makes you think bargain!!!

However what all the dealers say is that the odometer cannot be verified, makes you wonder what is the bloody point of them - "How stupid! Why? Why would you do that?" etc etc.

Once I had rid myself of that little internal rant, I discovered that the bike is actually pretty decent - was going for 1200, which i managed to get down a little to 1080, all helps!

I also purchased some new accessories - which aren't tremendously sexy but will make sure i'm safe. For example the trousers with the kevlar ass lining lol - apparently the advert has a guy being dragged round on his ass to prove they're safe! To see that click here

All in all the cost came to 1600 gbp - not bad I dont reckon!! :) I'm happy! And best of all its blue - you're with me on that one Father J right?

1 of 12......

Now, seriously after the whole 12 songs post I have been doing a little song writing. I have managed to get two verses out with a few additional twinkly bits that I have stored up top. I have scanned the lyrics and done a crude recording using audacity and a webcam - have a listen and let me know what you think. Once again lyrics , choruses and obscenities are completely welcome ;)

Being Engaged....

Now we know all the ladies have had chance to scream and shout but I reckon its only fair the guys should be able to do their "Well done mate!" and dish out burley and masculine hand shakes...

Most Popular Question : "Why did I do it?"
Most Popular Answer : "Because after 7 years I either proposed or risked losing a few vital organs in my sleep, its a small price to pay!"

No but seriously, you know when you love somebody and nothing else matters, thats where I am right now and there's no better place.

As such that doesn't mean I havent loved Chep over the last 7 years, lets just say that if you were trying to build a castle from stone and people kept blunting your tools you wouldnt have much luck would you? - I hear all of you that know me saying "say no more"...thanks guys!

Are they saying "say no more" because they are lost, they just don't want me to start ranting or because they understand the glaringly obvious truth hidden behind a analogy? I dunno, but its out of good faith so i'll take it and love you all the more for it!